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You see, when I realized addictions run in the family My sister went on another shopping spree Then my mother said I was ugly and my father went back to bribing me Then I caught him inhaling cancer And that was the only answer I got to "Why can't you stop coughing?" I never understood her aversion to alcohol until I heard about her father Am I the only one that's bothered by the fact That she's sleeping on the couch because she doesn't want to sleep near mine? But it's fine because time flies when I'm downstairs, locked in the bathroom, putting pressure on my wrists, punching walls and mirrors with clenched fists just tight enough fo

I am not sane I am insane Meaning in my own sanity My own life causing my own strife Over vanity which derives from sin Although it's not one of the seven It's my number one And I'll know that I've won When you, the shrink, stops your scribbling Just a pen with ink dribbling words on a paper Judging me, My insanity, because he doesn't know What I mean when I say I have to go but I would like to stay And finish the life I haven't chosen to live I'll give back to society for another few years I'll bring joy to my peers, tears Tears of joy to eyes that cry grief I won't be a thief of good days Swiping rays of sun that pe

"Pick a card, any card" He said coyly with a smirk I bit my tongue and smiled His playing games was but a quirk "I pick the 2 of truth" "Alright, well, you have gorgeous eyes" I blushed and looked away This game sent me to new highs "Umm, Jack of fact" Smiling, he took my hand Gave me a wink and said "Your wish is my command" Maybe a kiss Even a hug The thought gave my mind The slightest tug I felt light headed, High as a kite A newborn bird Who had just taken flight "9 of honesty" "Darling, why? You know I care, You know I try" "No. You know I trust you, You know my secret. Now 9 of honesty, Prove you'll keep it"

The secret keeper has a pond No one knows or even cares He gave goldfish up for bottles And everyday he sits and stares At all the floating secrets That litter his blue pond He often asks them questions But rarely do they respond You see he needs their company A crowd of silent friends Those who don't make you the god To which they need to make amends Every morning bright and early He grabs a bag too heavy for his back And tugs it to his spot Where everything fades to black He can't remember hearing Everything that's said Nobody that whispers in his ear Knows he's seeing red Who would ask their safe place What's lurking

I have this fun house mirror That's resting in my eyes It's a permanent pair of glasses That tells imprudent lies Like girls who, I am told, Look twice as big as I I see as fragile figures Who make green-eyed monsters cry And all those magazines Photo shopped to death Are my ideal images That leave out of breath I know no man will love me Or look into my soul Mainly because my eyes And cold as an iced bowl Then one day came knocking The prince I'd been waiting for He introduced himself as Mia And I'm not waiting anymore He treated me like a princess Until the sun went down Then he snuck into the bathroom Where he slow

She heard hooves and stared at the hour- "Rapunzel, Rapunzel, let down your hair" She glanced from her tower And there stood a prince charming so fair "You're not welcome here or anywhere near" She sang along with the birds Then covered her face to brush off a tear Only she knew those were empty words With grief Rapunzel was laden Prince charming distraught, he bowed down his head "As you wish my fair maiden" Then off in the sunset he fled That's the fifth prince this week To be turned away And the evening looked bleak As the sky turned to grey The very next day she sat feeling ill Massaging the temples that throbbed She p

I admire the feathers crimson red I hear the melody of words unsaid Suicide off the oak tree branch that broke The winds catch and caress like smoke My arms ache begging to capture the wind Craving for feathers my arms feel skinned I treasure the bird so free flying high "You can not join me." It trills flying by Mocking birds words leave a tear in my eye I run for the bird, end up in the sky

You don't want that, do you? You're not that hungry, are you? Why enjoy that bag of chips knowing it'll go straight to the hips when you can look like the skeletons hanging in your closet? You want to see the numbers on the scale go down and you can't help but frown when you don't look as frail as the model that died. An apple a day keeps the doctor away but what if that apple is all you eat? When every bite is a feat and you have to admit defeat against that petty crumb of something sweet, well that's when, you scrawl back to your den and retreat. But then you catch your reflection and it's so far from perfect

Why am I that girl? The "always dressed in black" girl? The "I want to sneak around behind your back" girl? What gives you the audacity to passively aggressively state that you're too good to appreciate a self-respecting girl? When will you realize that you're chasing after my clone with blue eyes, my clone with blonde hair? Now no one said life is fair but I just want a prince charming that cares enough to save a damsel in this dress. At least have the courtesy to say, after over a year long stay in my life that it wasn't strife and that it is was nice knowing you. But no, you tuck your tail and run. Back to that

Whiskey kisses on my tongue Swaying in the breeze Running out like dragons breath In mid air they freeze Whiskey kisses on my breath Teasing tips of tongues Running yearly marathons Escaping from my lungs Lowlife in a rocking chair Listening to my whiskey lullaby Who wouldn't judge and stare Into these drowsy, pitiful eyes Coffee with a spike in taste No one drinks the morning Unless the point's to drown A heartache truly scorning A drunken stroll around the block Burying feelings long not felt In the fog of whiskey talk Do thoughtful words slur and melt Unsteady hands drop bottles Shatters are whiskey chimes And drunken

The sun melted into the glamorous sky The moon stood there, hidden by sweet lullabies. But mommy was crying, her day had been hard The tears in her eyes twinkled just like the stars. Her face wasn't happy like it should have been And though she was saddened, she forcefully grinned. I wanted to see Mommy smile through it all... I painted a picture on her bedroom walls. I told her to look, just to come in and see But Mommy was angry... she wasn't happy. She threw me down hard on the cold wooden floor Then picked me up, slamming my head on the door. She yelled and she screamed, then she hit me once more She slapped me till I couldn't see a

Meet a girl named No One, with a heart of shattered stone Staring at the other girl, the one that's not alone Girl with skin that glistens, with the eyes of crystal seas Grin of shining diamonds and a laugh like a disease Flashes just a glance and soon, she's every trouble's cure She has everything… and No One's off to be like her. Eating turns into a crime, she'd rather be away Thrusting fingers down her throat to make herself okay Watching as her very bones are seen behind her flesh There she drowns in tears, for she has not yet seen success. Minutes turn to hours, and these hours turn to days Every moment slipping, slowly f